Family By Divine Design:: What? I have a blog?

05 February 2014

What? I have a blog?

Okay, so it hasn't been that long since I posted, but for someone who was dreaming of being a Mormon blogger with regular postings it kinda has. I'm just going to share some candid thoughts about that.

Remember that goal I made to spend less time on the computer? Well, I've been mostly sticking to it. Partly why I haven't been posting.
New year meant I was itching to try some new things. Informal resolutions if you will. I have a new cleaning schedule I've been trying out, and I decided I wanted to learn to play the guitar. Also, I've wanted to do more reading of books. Less computer time means more time for other stuff that's more worthwhile to me.
I have three kids. Two of them are in school, so a lot of my day isn't that hectic. But between reasons one and two, my day gets filled with other worthwhile things. And after things one and two get home from school, my day is shot. SO much to do after they get home.

What I'm saying is, I'm thinking that this is probably not the season to pursue my desire to be a Mormon blogger. Still, I will try to post more often. But there will not be much regularity, and definitely no schedule.

Also, I haven't felt like saying much. Recently I've been getting bogged down with discouragement. Brief periods of borderline bitterness really. Which is ridiculous because I know the Lord has a plan for me, and there are other people with much (SO much) harder lives than mine. But sometimes I see new babies and think about how I would have a very young baby right now if I hadn't miscarried. It would probably hurt less, maybe even not at all if I were pregnant again right now, but I'm not. And then I think how wrong it is that my father-in-law won't be here for the upcoming baptism and confirmation of my oldest child. I miss having him around. Things are just off, you know? Not at all according to my plan. But as I said, it could definitely be worse. And previously in my life when things didn't go according to my plan, the Lord's plan unfolded so beautifully and was so much better than mine. I guess that means I can possibly expect some awesomeness to go on in my future. Here's hoping. :)

5 comments:

Unknown06 February, 2014 04:06
Don't feel bad - this is your little space, and life is more important than a blog. Plus, you want your space to be a fun and creative outlet, not something you feel is a chore. Sometimes I take breaks from blogging (I basically took a 2-month break during the holidays) just because you need to sometimes. I'm so sorry for your loss. <3

~Kelly
www.leafynotbeefy.com
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Celeste06 February, 2014 05:55
Hugs, friend! Life is beautiful but yes it is hard sometimes too. Times and seasons, an important lesson to learn! Glad I'm not in charge of the universe OR my plans for my life because I'm just not sure I wouldn't screw it up. :) Funny though, I'm sort of the opposite...when things are GOOD I think "this can't be real, something bad's around the corner" and just wait for the other shoe to drop (and it usually does:). Your way of thinking sounds better.
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Shelley06 February, 2014 06:47
Love your goals! Sorry you're feelin' a bit down. My heart goes out to you as you yearn to have family members around who aren't. Love this line "when things didn't go according to my plan, the Lord's plan unfolded so beautifully and was so much better than mine." A double amen to that and to your faith. Lots of love.
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J B07 February, 2014 22:31
I wish I was there. We could hang out.
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Tiffany Giraud17 February, 2014 10:30
I have similar baby thoughts sometimes, "what would my life be like if..." So I guess we just keep holding to hope, "which...maketh an anchor to the souls of men." I like your blog, no matter how much or little you post. :)
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David's Bio

I grew up in southeastern Idaho moving at age one from the center of our town to the outskirts. This home had approximately ten acres and much of my youth was spent outdoors both playing and working with my grandparents on their farms. I enjoyed sports throughout my life and was active in wrestling and football throughout junior high and high school. My junior and senior years at high school a sweet young girl even convinced me to join the ballroom dance team. I graduated from high school and attended BYU where I earned my Bachelors degree in Biology in April 2007. Having been raised in the gospel it has always been an influence in my life.

Rachael's Bio

I lived in south central Idaho on a two-acre property in a three-story home until the fourth grade. We moved to Idaho's capitol where we lived until I was in eighth grade when we moved to south eastern Idaho. This move affected my life greatly. It helped me to gain and solidify my testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ as well as helped me decide how accurately I was going to live the gospel. This is also where I met David who was to become my best friend and husband. After graduating from high school in 2001 I attended BYU for four and a half years and graduated with a B.A. in Modern Dance, shortly before giving birth to our first child. Through all of my experiences my faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ and my dedication to living His gospel with integrity has increased. My greatest desire is that I will be able to help my children live and love the gospel.

Our Love Story

Rachael and David met first in their ward after Rachael moved in at the age of fourteen. Rachael's family had just moved across town to a home more suited to their needs than the original duplex. Both of their families were active in the church and Rachael and David both served in leadership positions of their respective YM/YW groups. With that constant exposure to each other was added the fact that they went to the same high school and were in the same graduating class. They found each other to be attractive and dated each other quite a bit near the end of their senior year and the summer afterward. After his freshman year at BYU David went on a mission to Russia - Rachael wrote him about every month and a half, just as an "interested" friend. Rachael was at home working for the summer when David returned from his mission and immediately felt that she wanted to date him again, so she asked him to go see the Phantom of the Opera in Salt lake City; thereafter followed about six months of courtship before they were married in Logan, Utah. Now they're both "the luckiest."